Belinda Parmar was a passionate advocate of the digital revolution but has started keeping her familys smartphones and laptops locked away to protect her loved ones. Is she right to be so worried?
In Belinda Parmars bedroom there is a wardrobe, and inside that wardrobe there is a safe. Inside that safe is not jewellery or cash or personal documents, but devices: mobile phones, a laptop, an iPod, chargers and remote controls. Seven years ago, Parmar was the high priestess of tech empowerment. Founder of the consultancy Lady Geek, she saw it as her mission both to make tech work better for girls and women and to get more girls and women working for tech. Now she wants to talk about the damage it can cause to our mental health, to family life and to children, including her son Jedd, 11, and daughter Rocca, 10.
Parmar made her living and lived her life through these devices, so what happened to make her lock them up? Why did this tech evangelist lose her faith?
Strong women run in Parmars family. She tells me her mother raised her and her sister alone after separating from their father when Parmar was two (shes now 44 and recently separated herself), while her grandmother, who had four children, ran her own business, a recruitment firm in Mile End, east London. She grew up believing anything was possible, which is why she felt driven to start Lady Geek when she was 35, after a man in a phone shop tried to sell her a pink, sparkly phone. That was the way technology was sold and I thought: This is ridiculous. I was so angry that I went home and started a blog, she says.
The blog was called Lady Geek, and it launched a national conversation about sexism in the tech industry. Parmar left her job in advertising to turn it into a business, advising tech companies how to make their products better for women, and going into schools to encourage girls to go into the industry, for which she was awarded an OBE. For me, tech was a leveller, she says. You didnt need money, you didnt need status; it was an enabler of a more equal and more diverse society. This tiny bubble that most of us lived in had been popped and that was wonderful. That still is wonderful.
But certain aspects of her relationship with technology were not so wonderful. Id wake up and look at Twitter, she says. I had two small children, and the first thing I should have been doing was going to see the kids, but Id be looking at Twitter. She realised she was using social media for validation, to feed her ego. She began to think: If technology is an enabler, why am I just using it for things I dont like about myself?
As her children grew up, she started to be disturbed by her sons apparent compulsion to play video games. Technology takes parents out of control. I cant compete with an amazing monster, that level of dopamine. He doesnt want to eat with us, to be with us, because its not as exciting, she says. She bought a Circle, a device that allows you to manage the whole familys internet access, controlling which devices are online at which times and what they can view. My son hid it, she says. She tried to turn the wifi off, but he stood guarding it, blocking her way. She still does not know where the Circle is. In theory, she says, if youve got compliant children, this would be perfect. Perhaps that is why her combination to the safe, with his devices and hers, is 12 digits long.